I would not mind jumping on a plane right now and going back to the States. I wish I were spending my summer in Cali or Boston or NYC or Philly or even Michigan. Being here makes me miss Philly so much, and each day I'm getting more excited about going back to school...
Everything seems to move slower here: service, people, days, etc. Work is not exciting, and I would probably be more useful if I just volunteered at some soup kitchen in Detroit. I guess it's disappointing so far--especially work, and things probably won't pick up anytime in the next two months. It's also frustrating because in any city in the US, you can use the internet to find out about cool opportunities or events to check out, or I could find some side project to get involved in, but here, they don't really use the internet. :( You can't find anything about anything! The city is also really inaccessible if you don't have a car; the only places within walking distance are my job and the shopping center that I already go to (at least) every other day. More than ever, I want to make some rash decision like go off and hang out with the locals.. Find out what there is to do in this city...
I'm also just disappointed in myself for being disappointed in this experience, for even being able to say that I really want to be in Philly right now. Many of the other interns are somewhat frustrated with their job placements, too, and how useless they feel, so I think it's mostly just this program-- I'm completely unneeded as an intern here. They have nothing for me to do (except for maybe data entry, which I do NOT want to do). If I could, I'd abandon this internship and go volunteer at some orphanage or go to an outside villages and take pictures all day. If I could, I'd stop being so scared and just be rash and immerse myself in this country, adventure with locals and such. I think that would help alleviate this problem.. but also probably cause some other problems. Sigh.
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